I try to maintain a buddhist non-attachment to things, and live truly in each moment but it is so difficult at times. I love my gf dearly but I spend sometimes too worried about the future and hoping that this goes how my heart wants it to. The older I get the more I freak out about making my goals of having children a reality (Im 30) I really want to conceive one, adopt one. I want to learn to give freely over to the moment as much as possible. At least each year I feel closer to being able to do that.