I wish I could completely cut my father out of my life. For some reason, I can't, so he continually is in a position to be able to hurt me.
I feel like it's not okay for me to admit how much I hate working. I'm so easily stressed out, being out in the working world makes me so anxious that my body literally starts to break down. I just want to stay home and write.
My ex ripped my heart apart. It kills me that I still think about him, even though I'm now in love with someone else. I hate myself for compromising myself, for letting him convince me to be sexual with him, when I knew that's not what I wanted to do. Now we're broken up, and I know he has nude photos of me. And when I'm sexual with my new partner, who I love more than anything in this world, I sometimes get flashes of my ex and I'm so ashamed of that.
Just the fact that I'm a sexual person is a big secret. I consider myself a virgin, but I do engage in oral sex with my boyfriend. Despite the fact that my family and church would probably condemn me, I can't bring myself to feel badly about it. I fucking love orgasms. In fact, that's when I feel most alive : )
thank you. this helped me so much, just to write it down.
I feel like it's not okay for me to admit how much I hate working. I'm so easily stressed out, being out in the working world makes me so anxious that my body literally starts to break down. I just want to stay home and write.
My ex ripped my heart apart. It kills me that I still think about him, even though I'm now in love with someone else. I hate myself for compromising myself, for letting him convince me to be sexual with him, when I knew that's not what I wanted to do. Now we're broken up, and I know he has nude photos of me. And when I'm sexual with my new partner, who I love more than anything in this world, I sometimes get flashes of my ex and I'm so ashamed of that.
Just the fact that I'm a sexual person is a big secret. I consider myself a virgin, but I do engage in oral sex with my boyfriend. Despite the fact that my family and church would probably condemn me, I can't bring myself to feel badly about it. I fucking love orgasms. In fact, that's when I feel most alive : )