I am sick and haven't been able to lead a normal life in about six months. It's something chronic and my doctor can't seem to figure out what is wrong with me. I'm really scared but I feel like I can't tell anyone because another friend of mine is also sick, but she's much sicker than I am and everyone is focusing their love and energy on her. I know that I come off as harsh and uncaring because I don't dote on her like everyone else, but it's not because I care less... it's because I'm sick, too.

I know it's starting to show to the people around me. I'm just getting worse and worse and all of the excuses as to why I'm not at work, why I didn't get out of bed all weekend, why I retreat to my room to "do work" but turn out the light at 8 pm in the evening... it's all going to unravel any moment.